Tuesday, January 05, 2010
hmmm...
Dear Lord... You do listen to my prayer... Don't you?
With quite a dreadful heart, i turned up for my IA with Shimon to meet our supervisor... We were too early and reached at about 0815... Had to wait for a while outside cos we couldn't get in as we did not have the tap card... The wait had me filled up with anticipation....
We waited at the HR office and apparently its the wrong place to wait at.. We were left alone till 0845... Till we went over to the R&D side and then this lady got us in the office. Stephan wasn't there yet. And when he finally was, he gave us a brief briefing and we were left to do nothing at our desk except read their employee magazine and brochure magazine. While informative and somewhat nteresting, we were tired from the lack of sleep because we were too excited for the IA.
This happened at around 10 maybe whereby we were asked to go over to the HR side to complete our employment documents and settle the formalities there. The worst was, they din know what to do with the NUS admin. Goodness... How can the admin be so screwed up? I started work and i haven registered for the IA cos of the lack of training programme and salary!
Oh yea... I still dunno how much we're getting. Funny hor...
Haiz... That aside... My day brightened up a little after lunch time which was 12-1.
After the the director of R&D finished his briefly, we were told that... WE HAVE A NEW SUPERVISOR!! NO MORE THE INTIMIDATING DOMINK!
I really loved that idea of a new supervisor.. I'm sure Shimon shared the same sentiments with me too with the look on his face.. Her name was Callien... Ok i know what you guys are thinking but no... She was a nice lady... Dun think she very much older than us also ba... NTU grad... She was better.
She smiles... She's less intimidating. I dun feel stressed around her. I really feel that i can work properly with her instead of Dominik. Dominik would have been good if i was clever and was a CAP 5 but too bad i'm a 3rd class... =(
Sad to say that..
We had our tour again and safety briefing.. We finally got chance on hands on with grinding and polishing. Goodness.. I grinded all the wires off on my first attempt. The wires were small... Thinner than your hair!
Last good news of the day... My working hours is 0830 to 1730! Haha! And we tot it was till 1800! Great!
Dear God... You really know whats troubling my heart.. And you have really solved problems for me and your miracles are... AMAZING.
1. A new supervisor who i can work with easily
2. My ending time is 1730 instead of 1800!
The director of the R&D was quite approachable! Though i wouldn't touch him soon as he's like the boss of the office. A uncle (Loke) who looks really friendly and approachable... You really throw everything into the package... Just cause you can...
My day had sucked initially... But dear God you made my day after that.
Dear God i just have one more request... I am on it already.... But i need your help too... Pls let my supervisor be done with the training schedule so i can register for my self initiated IA.. And... Pls let me get my HR2002 k? And oh yes! I still dunno my pay yet...
Love you...
Amen...
Monday, January 04, 2010
My little red book says.... And i quote from a movie(Flywheel) which i loved,
"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."
Psalm 37:4-7
I promise to wait patiently.
I just wanna finish well in this life before i go before the Lord with no regrets.
I ran around my neighbourhood today again... The last time i did, it was 10.01 minutes... Today i clocked 9.22... Start and ended the same spot. Displacement ==0. The feeling of running really sucked. I have already forgotten the times where i din mind running... And ran 8 km straight. Just cause i want to.
The IPPT is near and i doubt i can get a silver... Maybe i can pass but i'm not sure. Maybe with God i can do it. I should just prepare for my rain... Maybe a miracle can happen.. I just need to train up my running again... IPPT is soon... On the 16th in fact which is on a saturday.
IA starts tml...
I really pray that i would be blessed as i had been these previous few years. Though its not SEP or NOC, i'm really feeling unrest in my tummy and at the same time really sad.
I pray," Have mercy on me tomorrow as i start internship and that bless me when a great day whereby i can settle every formalities for the IA with the school. I too pray that i can get my night class application approved so i can do make my year 4 life easier. I pray that all for Shimon too.
In his name i pray...
Amen."
Many people will have this thought in mind once or twice in their lives.... And that is?
"Who can i depend on except for myself?"
This though has been in my mind for very long since the army when i found out the fact that everything there is a problem with whatever, i have to be the one to improvise and solve it.
It may give people the impression that, "khengsoon can settle it... or khengsoon is up to the challenge.." Oh well... most of the time i am at a loss of what to do for a while and then.... i will try my best to improvise and make things work.
School life has been great and circumstances are now different from the army now. No longer do i hold much power in what i need to solve or handle as there are offices like the office of undergrad and department office to handle... Soon and in fact from tml onwards, i will start my IA work and there are still so many things that i have not confirm or even registered for my self initiated IA. This is bad. But as compared to people who are going for NOC like eddi for one year and SEP like louelle, this may be a small thingy that i have to overcome. At least i have shimon working with me... Thats what i tell myself most of the time... This fact can indeed be self assuring.
As a spec, sometimes i do look up to people for directions and if not avail, i'll determine what to do.. This is how i work. This is good as shimon was an officer and we'll work well.
Recently, i have had this unpleasant stirring in my heart due to the IA. I am somewhat unsure again... This 12MCs of IA seems to have taken away my chance for second lower and worst of it, i have to travel from AMK to NUS for HR2002... HR2002 is a problem too... Cos i haven got the module and i wonder if others have gotten it. Oh well... This kinda suck...
I wonder what would my working life be like sometimes and i really wish it'll be what i enjoy... Seriously, i enjoyed my time in Panasonic though there are times where i get to feel sian and dun wanna go to work.. Guess i like some customer interaction and travel time during jobs...
What will my work life be? I know i'm gonna do R&D on metal... I know i'm gonna don on the lab coat. I dun really liek this BUT this is something i'm familiar with...
Dear God... You've me up to this IA... I am guessing its by your will i'm going and i just pray that you can calm my heart from all my uncertainties and you'll show me the light....
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
In macs today.... I opened my little red book of knowledge and infinite wisdom... It spoke,
"Blessed is the one who reads the words of this prophecy, and blessed are those who hear it and take it to heart what is written in it, because the time is near."
Rev 1:3
I wanna be blessed! Not by reading the little red book ritually... But really to learn.
=D
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
From this little red book that was given to me through people who i had learnt so much from,
"These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and whta he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name."
Revelation 3:7-8
A word from god... In which i understood, learnt and had forgotten. Now am found, i would like togo back to Him cause only in Him that He can open doors no one can open and shut doors no one can shut. Only in Him i will live my life as a righteous man.
Amen. =D
Monday, December 28, 2009
Oh dear....
Finally i get the answer after 3 weeks. This might be easier when not much has been invested in yet but then it would not be love as it is.
I've learnt a precious lesson from Him and directly from Louelle too... Whatever he gives, he'll take away. When you thought you had it all, you actually had nothing at all.
My ex cell leader once asked me... "Do you think you deserve to go to heaven or that you deserve to go to hell no matter wat?" That was what he asked.... My answer was that as much as i'm a sinner, i think thats always a part of me of deserving to go to heaven. His response? Guess no matter how much bible teachings we have, we'll never be convinced that we deserve hell.. Only the holy spirit can touch our heart and light our way. I agreed...
Since he had spoken... I guess i'll have to learn to deal with this...
I'll learn to be a better man...
Saturday, December 26, 2009
To you.....
How have you been since? How was your Christmas? How are you going to spend your new year? Hmmm... Just a few questions i wanna ask you but can't.
Oh well... Just needa get it out of my system.. =
Sunday, December 20, 2009
sie kheng soon...
i am a very suck to the mud kinda person who is fixated on stuffs that are tested and proven. It is... or in another words, i am kinda a stubborn person and that if new things are to be introduced to me, great lengths are required to be taken before i am convinced of what you think is good or rather, to prove real that i really like what you think i like.
it is because of this, that i tend to keep to my collection of music and lags behind the forthcoming trend in music. it is but of course, ok.
Louelle has been saying this and that about Glee and that how it is like HSM and how much i would love it. Really... I was sceptical and thought... "how can anything be better than HSM?" Oh well... It is not better... BUT IT IS AS GOOD! WHATS EVEN BETTER?! ITS A TV SHOW!
Since the first introduction of glee to me on lou's iphone preview of glee during the times we went to buy icecream and pizza for the engin club retreat, i haven really put in effort to get for a first taste. Guess i was busy or rather, busy with all the lab reports, i din really tried to watch glee.
So today, i finally put in some effort to get glee and..... GOODNESS!
I think beside Grey's Anatomy, I'm gonna have a new show to follow too! =D
Simply loving the songs...
DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
p.s. thanks louelle for the great recommendation. =D
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